umm i am currently super busy with school and work! I am writing a few short stories at the moment and i will post them when im done i can also put up some of my photos if you like?
Found some new freind! already been to a couple parties. Got a job interview in the photography center at walmart. And i got a Photography gig with the local skate shops snowboarding team!
i just got my alberta license and im sitting here changing pictures into polaroids! its a neat little program i found.
I think i might have ADD when it comes to writing and books. I took your advice lily and stopped reading the biography of Anthony kiedis. I started reading one of my old books But i have a urge to switch what im reading. It seems like i havent finished reading a book in ages. I want to read the catcher in the rye or The road by Mcarthy Cormac. I really dont know what to do!
Just got back from Edmonton got a new desk for my room a TV stand and a head board for my bed. It looks good:)
Writing this short story.
I am really enjoying writing this short story. Its about the second world war a solider named hans whittmann. He is a gunner on a PAK 43 anti tank gun. At times I feel as if me and him are connected in a way. I feel like this story has already been written in my head and has just been sitting there waiting for me to make it public.I am enjoying this whole experience and really want to keep doing it but just like everything in life I always give up. After I finish writing a paragraph or two of my story I feel like the words are running through my head. im in a euhoria over a piece of literature! Its amazing! I love it.
When Franz Kafka died he first told his freind to destroy all of his work. He did not listen to his plea and brought all of franz kafkas short stories and uncomplete novels to pulishers. One of those books is intitled Amerika. It was originally not going to be titled that but his freind took inititive and named it for his fallen brotheren. Max brod was the mans name. A letter was sent to him before franz's death."Dearest Max, my last request: Everything I leave behind me ... in the way of diaries, manuscripts, letters (my own and others'), sketches, and so on, is to be burned unread."
I have a few reasons why I wrote that short paragraph about Franz Kafka. I have become more and more interested in his work and his short story the metamorphosis. He wrote all of his ideasown.Everything and anything that came to mind that might help write a novel. None of his work had attracted much attentiont ill after his death except a few short stories and The metamorphosis. I want to follow in his foot steps in a way and write down everything. I have actually always left my laptop on standbye or a piece of paper at bed side to write down any ideas in the middle of the night. I want to save them all and look back at them. I use blogger as sort of a archive to my life that is public for any persons that may find my life interesting. The only thing I dont want to copy Franz is by not being noticed. If I write I want it to be recognized while im alive. Although he is a liturature figure.
There is something about typewriters and fountain pens that make me want to write. It seems crazy I know. But holding a fountain pen I just want to write! Aswell as hearing the amazing noise of a typewriter cracking against a page.
By the way. I am using open office that does not highlight corrections. I am to lazy to edit and really need microsoft word. YES! I know lily a good writer needs to know how to edit. I know I know. But typos and spelling errors would be amazing to highlight. Now I know this is asking alot but if someone could lend me a Product key. I know it can work for more then one computer because it can be moved around from PC to PC. Im gonna try and find a Key Gen before I go stealing yours.
Anywho thats my randomness today!:)
bye bye
I have problems sometimes. When i have lots on my mind i just want to post another blog. But I feel like i should only once a day but when i have something on my mind I'm gonna instantly open openoffice and write what i feel. It may not be the most neatly or formally written but i will eventually start using punctuation properly and so on and so forth. ever morning i will post blog about what i wrote on open office. Should be good. maybe even fun to read!
I wrote this when i was really upset it comes straight from my heart so thats the reason it is so badly written and random.
I just wanted to write something. I have no clue why. Its good practice for the future. But i will probably just quit after a day like everthing i have ever done in my life. Todays events were horrible.i ruined my parents 20th anniversary. My dad wanted me to help with the new deck. So I went outside to help him out after about a half hour maybe a hour of weeding the under section of the deck. The job was useless he wanted to clear all grass and weeds from the bottom part of the deck so that only rocks were visible. I suggested we buy more rocks and lay them down over the weeded ground. I was instantly called a bitch.... fuck why am I writing about this shit. I dont care, all I know is I ruin everything acccording to them. My dad sayed go fuck yourself to me earlier and he also flipped me off and calls me “it” alot of the time. I really wanna be alot more like my brother because then my family will love me. But I just seem to screw things up. My mom litterally said that a divorce was a option. i really dont know what to do.
Anywho there has been a couple things constantly on my mind lately. One thing is I have a incredible erge to smoke weed. Another is I really want to take pictures. Just like my uncle I really would like to do that. I have also been really interested in this movie “the killing of john lennon” its all about the man who killed the ex-beatle john lennon. This guy has an obsession with the book the catcher and the rye. I really wanna read it now. I have read some things about it and its about a outcast in high school. I really feel that I could connect to the book aswell. I also read like something like 25 000 copies of the book are sold every year. So it should be a good read. I am currently reading scar tissue its about the lead singer of the red hot chilli peppers anthony kiedis. Its all about his drug use and its incredibly interesting to me. I almost want to live that life. But its unhealthy and wrong.Hes making it sound alot better then it actually is in his writing style.
I wanna write a book of some sort. Im gonna do that right now. This whole writing I am doing is just a way to vent maybe I will post it on blogger. Not to sure.
July 30
Just woke up its 11:28 and I had a couple weird but needed dreams I had one where I was at school or a place I can not really explain and my freind holly from back home came up and hugged me. We hugged for a long time and I started to cry. I woke up from my dream and I was crying.This kinda scared me but I really miss her. I miss everyone I am here alone and have no one to talk to and release my problems with. I havent had fun for over a week. Im living a kids night mare.
I dont want to leave my room because of my dad. I cant be shielded by my mom during the day. She is really my only protection during his reign of terror.I will probably end up walking upstairs and either be glared at, have orders yelled at me or be insulted. This isnt really the life I pictured when I learned was going to be moved to this hick town.
I continuesly see this one girl around town. She is so pretty and I really want to ge tthe nerve to walk up to her and say hi! But I just cant. I saw her driving with her mom today and she looked right at me. This was all while I was on a walk. I take strolls to calm down and get away from my family. I saw her and I saw were she lived. I already knew what kind of car she had, Its a red blazer. As I was finishing my walk it just so happened I passed by here house. We live on the same street. As I walked by I glanced at the house and it was her! Looking at me threw the window I had no clue what to do so I just kept walking. It was exciting to see her look back. I hope she didnt think I looked like a freak.
Im listening to neil young im loving his tunes lately.And hes canadian which makes it all the more better!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pj1TuZbwMsI just go there and check it out:) its for u guys
check out my news on the go channel on twitter
www.twitter.com/newsonthego
So at the moment i am listening to a audio book. Because i am lazy. i found a website called www.librivox.org it has a wide collection of books that you can listen to. I am listening to a war novel called over the top. I move in 14 days. But wait there's more! i am doing my drivers test tomorrow. ill be able to drive on my own soon!
Alright so its been a long time since i have updated. Turns out i got 2 followers NICE! But i have found the perfect fix for all your blogger needs. If you dont want to write in MS Word and Copy it over to blogger. Get the web browser Safari it has a spell check just like word plus it is by far the fastest Internet browser i have ever used.
sorry for my absense but i have been working on my youtube channel most of all
I am not sure but i am sick of my Crappy old IPod. Is a Ipod Touch worth the buy?
im also looking into a mac book pro But i would need to dig deep into my pockets for that.
Okay so i have purchased a webcam and made a youtube channel. I already Have My first Video up its a Boxing Shoe Review.
The URL is www.youtube.com/RicemanCDN
CHECK IT OUT !!!!!:)
I have to write three poems for English in school. take a look for your self.
my A.D.D kicked in
Walking on a cloud
Lookin around
Nothing left
Nothing right
Just clear skies
Imagine that
Artic cat
On my lap
With a hat
having a nap
I watch alot of youtube. There is one person i follow pretty closely. His account is SxePhil he does a Vlog everyday and a little rant its pretty funny and it makes me laugh. I hope through hardwork and exposure i can get to his level of popularity. I also wanna start video blogs.
